Surgery

well, it's official. we just went back to the ophthalmologist yesterday afternoon and there's not doubt that caleb needs to have the surgery done. he will be undergoing the procedure on october 13th (next thursday). victor and i are nervous about it, but we know that it's what's best for him, and we've taken a lot of time to ask 2nd and 3rd opinions, pray, and pray some more.

but i tell you what, that consent form that they make you sign is one scary piece of paper. i felt like i was signing my son's life away. it basically went into detail about how they weren't liable if caleb's condition worsened, if he had any loss of limbs, a list of all these complications, and if he died. i know it's a worse case scenario thing to cover their butts, but it sure does scare the living daylights out of you before you sign it.

then dr. paysse was describing what would be done as he was anesthetized. she told us about the gas mask, then putting the iv in, then inserting the breathing tube down his throat... i feel myself tear up everytime i think about it.

we then asked about what he would look like after the surgery. she said the eyelid would look pretty scary afterwards, but it would smooth out in about 2 weeks. his right eye would be very wide open, and we'd have to put drops in his eye a few times a day. after all healing is done, she said that his eye will always be open about 2 mm, even when he sleeps. the poor kid.

but i'm trying really hard to keep perspective. victor and i love caleb so much. he has brought us so much joy, and i'm constantly reminding myself how fortunate i am to have such a healthy, happy baby. he's so active, and extremely "robust" (a euphemism for "chubby"). we feel so blessed that God has placed him in our care.

anyway, all this to say, please remember him in your prayers next thursday morning.